Day Five: When you fall, brush off the dirt and keep running.

Well, this morning I was unusually excited! I wanted to see two more disgusting pounds deducting from my current weight of 198.4 pounds. As I finished up with my humanly morning duties, I hoped on the scale, just to look down and be entirely pissed off. I only lost 1.4 pounds. Yup! I am currently 197.0 pounds. I wanted to cry.

I started thinking to myself, "What can I do differently... what DID I do differently? What did I eat, drink, touch that would of affected my results?" So I started brainstorming. I wrote down everything I did differently. It was not a long list.

1. Used Johnson's & Johnson's Baby Lotion... but that is excepted! It has nothing ending in "ose".
2. I ate steak for two meals, again excepted!
3. I had Stevia drinks. Stevia is also on the okay list... but maybe...

I thought maybe I was putting to much Stevia Sweetener in my cup of "Joe". So I jumped online and started to investigate. Not to my surprise, I was right, Stevia is on the list and their was no quantity control there. Stevia is so strong that really you could not handle more than a few drops at a time in one cup anyway. So in retrospect I did not use in total more than a a couple of dropper fulls, to sweeten my drinks.

Frustrated, I continued to poke around to see what in the world I could have done wrong. To no avail, I... well I eventually gave up. So I started another project, to take my mind off the angering situation. I went to Excel, to finish up next weeks meal plan and I glanced at the rule section. I totally messed up! While fixing two Stevia Drinks I added 1 tbsp milk each... adding to 2 tbsp in total. To my surprise, I am only allowed 1 tbsp milk per day! Yikes!

How could I have forgotten that! Not to mention that the 1 tbsp difference caused me to not lose an extra pound!!! Confound it! Believe me, I was so perturbed by myself for not going back to double check the rules like Dr. Simeon advises. Never rely on your memory! After a few minutes of beating myself up, Spencer comes into the room and sweetly says, "Megan, you lost one pound. That is still fantastic! Why are you so upset? At least you did not gain a pound. You are doing great."

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Do you see what I mean! This is why I do not deserve this man! He is always so kind and patient, helping me to see the good in everything. What a wonderful support and backbone I have, constantly building me up and placing me on that pedestal. If it were not for my companion, friend, and eternal love I would be lost. Thank you Spencer for loving me, the psychotic, grotty, and impractical person I am.

As usual, Spencer is right. I lost one pound. That is fantastic! Why was I so distraught? I should have been ecstatic! So, I made a mistake, but I also learned from that mistake. You know the old saying, "Don't cry over spilled milk."? Well it applies to me constantly! It is okay to foul up. Without mistakes, we would not have a valuable lesson to learn from. When you fall, brush off the dirt and keep running.