Day three: Worth it in the end.

2/25/2010

Even though I felt as if I was literally dying on the couch, I made it through the binge period. I honestly do believe that this step was meant to do two things for the patients:

1. To obviously pack your fat cells to the max to help your body loose the weight faster... to lose weight you must gain weight!

2. Teach you a lesson! Make you so miserable (your insides feel like they want to be on the outside of your body) that you never want to touch, fast food, butter, grease or saturated fat ever again through all eternity!

No joke compadres! At first, eating all my favorite rich and buttery foods was absolutely amazing! I was loving every minute of it. But gradually you start to feel as if you are swimming in butter. Then, as the binge continues, you are drowning in layers of butter, lard, and monkey fat. This was only the beginning!

Warning! This may gross you out!

My body felt like a toliet. I was spilling over with sewage and rubbish. It was bubbling out of me like a child that is allergic to milk! No, friends... Not in the normal foul way of puking your brains out... but yes... the other end. It was revolting. My whole body felt as if it was rebelling against me. Screaming at me, "WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME!" All I could answer in response was a meek and lowly, "I do not know..."

Ashamed, I went to bed. Pleading with my body to let me have a restful sleep and declaring a promise that I will never again put my precious temple through that kind of calamity.

Ha! Ha! That was almost spooky! Reads just like a story! No seriously though, I was hurting. And it did feel as I described it. No lie. But the best part was yet to come...

As I said, the best part did come! After I did my normal morning rituals, I stood on the scale... terrified to look down. As I did, I wanted to pass out!

I LOST 4 POUNDS!!!

Can you believe it! After I destroyed my body over the past two days, it gave me a wonderful gift back! Well that and the HCG kicked in... but who cares! The point is that I lost weight! I am feeling so good about myself, so incredibly positive! I was able to hold to the diet thus far, and I will do it again!

For once the big picture does not matter (for right now at least). All of my concern and effort will be for today. To look at each day as the challenge, and to follow my diet one day at a time. Not worrying about if I will lose anything tomorrow or the next day, but if I can try my best following Dr. Simeon's protocol. Not once have I ever felt this positive about a diet or myself. I can do this.

I know this will be hard. Some days I will want to give up completely. But, I promise myself, it will be worth it in the end.